Recently, I have gone way crazy. I said things I shouldn’t be saying, I do things I shouldn’t be doing.

 Right here, I still want to express me apologies to my people around me, who might feel hatred towards me all of a sudden or grieve because of my foolishness.

 And also, I wan to express my thanks to yuhui from Singapore poly ministry.

She scolded me on the msn at 1am in the morning, and what she said was very true, and God really use her to get me back on the track again.  She also encouraged me to move on, and that fully sealed my reconcilation with God. I’m still think back upon my actions and I condemn myself to the most fooliest man on Earth.

I must admit that, recently, as I decided to move onto Music, which God has called forth me to do. I started to listen to anti-christ bands, like Slipknot, Underoath. I want to experience for myself, what is different between a Praise and Worship and Satanic death metals. And now,  I finally understand. That’s explain why on Wednesday, I suddenly lost control of myself and do foolish things and said foolish words. My mind was corrupted by Satan’s song. Now, that I have gotten back things right with God, I deleted all those mp3 tracks from the computer, Never will I ever touched things that of Satan again.

The demonic spiritual warfare. I have experienced, however God delivered me. I thank God  for amazing grace, that I am able to continue to grow in the Lord.  I really make up my decision to grow, in terms of determination, focusing on God, and speech and words. I called Joel at 2300hrs, and I asked him this qn, ” will you continue to help me overcome this? I don’t know what I’m doing the other day.” I full of tears when he said, Yes.  God is graceful. My shepherd is graceful. I must have bite him so terribly the other day.

 To God;

Lord, will you continue to Grow me?

I’ m lost , and now I’m found.

I’m clueless abt everything.

Will you let me hold your hand, and guide me along?

step by step

little by little

Use me once again, for your kingdom,

my will is stronger now.

I surrender

Junwei